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Friday, January 29, 2010, 8:57 PM
twenty-fourth!
BEST. shit luh foil my plans man. i have so many things to do this weekend. and this strange symptoms of fever are killing me. and there's no fever so i don't get to skip school on monday. that's the worst part. actually i'd rather go to school. and i couldn't sleep last night. it was too hot but too cold when i turned on the fan. and the stupid body aches from idk where. GOD HELP ME PLEASE. ;ill. , 12:44 AM
twenty-third!
i'm really amazed at how the lady managed to hang on there man. there were times when she wanted to give up, she said it was an attractive option. but she didn't. i don't know why she didn't. if only she could tell me. i doubt i'll ever think like her. i doubt i'll ever hang on like her. i doubt i'll ever overcome the challenges in life as well as her. or should i say i may not even have the courage to overcome it. not courage perhaps, energy. we're all so tired of failing and trying again. of failing and trying with no avail. until one day we've decided that that's enough. then that's the end of everything. we stop trying. we give up. we die. well then we have to find the motivation to move on don't we. i still haven't found mine yet. ;dead. Tuesday, January 26, 2010, 6:27 AM
twenty-second!
i wonder why we're living like this. why we're all doing things we don't want to. over and over again. why we're burdened by expectations and stereotypes. over and over again. why we live lives planned for us by others. day after day. it's strange isn't it? how we don't seem to control our lives as much as we want to. how we seem to doing everything routinely that we even forget the purpose behind it. how we don't seem to care that this is going on. ;self-control. Sunday, January 24, 2010, 5:04 AM
twenty-first!
it's time to let go. it's time to leave everything else behind. it's time to move on to somewhere you wished would be better. it's time to throw it all away. because you're just too tired to keep hang in there. because you're just too tired of waiting for something that didn't exist. because you're just too tired of hoping that everything would be okay soon. because you're just too tired of thinking that this is the worst everything can get. because you're just too tired of facing failures over failures with nothing getting better. after years of thinking for others, do you have the right to be selfish for once? do you have the right to hurt them for the rest of their lives? do you have the right to abandon everything you have here and leave this place? do you have the right to let go of it all and save yourself from everything here? do you have the right to do something you really want to? no you don't. you don't have the right. you don't have the right to choose what you want. because you've made the wrong choice that brought you here. you don't have the right to abandon everything here. because you've brought them upon yourself. you don't have the right to hurt them for the rest of their lives. because they hadn't done anything wrong. ;there's nothing you can do about that. it's life. move on. Saturday, January 23, 2010, 12:17 AM
twentieth!
i am outside. and i've been waiting for the sun. with my wide eyes. i've seen worlds that don't belong. my mouth is dry. with words i cannot verbalize. tell me why. we live like this. keep me safe inside. your arms like towers. tower over me. we are broken. what must we do to restore, our innocence? and all the promise we adored. give us life again. cause we just wanna be whole. lock the doors. cause i'd like to capture this voice. that came to me tonight. so everyone would have a choice. and under red lights. i'll show myself it wasn't forged. we're at war. we live like this. keep me safe inside. your arms like towers. tower over me. cause we are broken. what must we do to restore, our innocence? and all the promise we adored? give us life again. cause we just wanna be whole. tower over me. tower over me. and i'll take the truth at any cost. cause we are broken. what must we do to restore, our innocence? and all the promise we adored? give us life again. cause we just wanna be whole. ;will you? Friday, January 22, 2010, 8:19 PM
nineteenth!
let's sing a song. let me apologize to begin with. let me apologize for what i'm about to say. but trying to be genuine was harder than it seemed. and somehow i got caught up in between. let me apologize to begin with. let me apologize for what i'm about to say. but trying to be someone else was harder than it seemed. and somehow i got caught up in between. between my pride and my promise. between my lies and how the truth gets in the way. the things i wanna say to you get lost before they come. the only thing that's worse than one is none. let me apologize to begin with. let me apologize for what i'm about to say. but trying to regain your trust was harder than it seemed. and somehow i got caught up in between. between my pride and my promise. between my lies and how the truth gets in the way. the things i wanna say to you get lost before they come. the only thing that's worse than one is none. the only thing that's worse than one is none. and i cannot explain to you. in anything i say or do or plan. fear is not afraid of you. guilt's a language you can understand. i cannot explain to you. in anything i say or do or plan. i hope the actions speak the words they can. for my pride and my promise. for my lies and how the truth gets in the way. the things i wanna say to you get lost before they come. the only thing that's worse than one is none. for my pride and my promise. for my lies and how the truth gets in the way. the things i wanna say to you get lost before they come. the only thing that's worse than one is none. the only thing that's worse than one is none. the only thing that's worse than one is none. okay i'm tired. ;i hope you really understand what i'm trying to tell you. , 8:15 PM
eighteenth!
i shall get some from maggy's blog. , 8:09 PM
seventeenth!
but it just wouldn't. , 8:09 PM
sixteenth!
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fifteenth!
resentenced to: tom's dick is harry (hairy). see how corrupt an 8-year-old mind can be. , 8:02 PM
fourteenth!
me: what do you want to hear? good or bad? megan: bad. me: then it's bad. megan: (something about me being negative) LOL. i THINK the conversation went like that. and i think she's the negative one here. Wednesday, January 20, 2010, 6:51 AM
thirteenth!
oh thanks god. you had to make it true. i'm so lost in my own thoughts, i don't seem to be caring about anything else. anyone else. that's selfish isn't it? oh yes it is. i don't seem to be looking at things the way i should. i don't seem to be thinking about what they're thinking. i don't seem to be making an effort in anything. can't this end right now? end. everything. now. right. here. ;fascinated at how bad thoughts come true, and good thoughts don't. , 6:05 AM
twelfth!
bringing back memories i wished i didn't have, sometimes i think of letting go, and never looking back, and never moving forward so there'd never be a past." oh don't we all do? sometimes people say that we should not be too cooped up with the past. they say we should care about the present and future. they say the past's over and we can't do anything about it. they say we should forget the past and move on with life. but it's the past that make us what we are today. it's the past that matters. it's the past that moulds everything that happens today. it's what happens today that causes what happens tomorrow. it's all about the past. we say, we'll let it go. but ask yourself this, have you really? yes perhaps it's the future we should look forward to. but strangely, my perception of the future is greatly affected by the past. "yesterday was the worst day ever, and tomorrow won't be better. it's history repeating" -quotesimpleplan- ;stuck in my own head again. sometimes i really don't wanna move on. Sunday, January 17, 2010, 1:28 AM
eleventh!
how much they mean to you. but we only realize someone's existence after you lost him/her don't we. i won't leave you there. alone. no matter what you did. trust me. , 1:23 AM
tenth!
though it never does. but i can only pray to god, i can only pray that tomorrow will be an exception. make it look fine at least. i'm sorry. this is all that i can do for you. or at least. all that i can think of. Saturday, January 16, 2010, 5:49 AM
ninth!
what's wrong with wanting to help. what's wrong with accompanying her everywhere. what's wrong with making a lonely friend feel wanted. what's wrong man tell me. if you haven't felt the obligation and desire to help. don't say a word. if you've never experienced what she'd experienced. don't say a word. if you've not heard the things she picked up the courage to say. don't say a damn word. stop assuming; or you'll make an ass out of you and me. , 5:37 AM
eighth!
sometimes we just need a shoulder to cry on. sometimes we just need someone to talk to. sometimes we just need someone to notice. sometimes we just need some words of assurance. sometimes we just need a person for a hug. stop labelling us as "emo". or rather "acting emo". stop saying that we're trying to get attention. stop saying that we're despos. stop claiming that we're fretting over problems which are insignificant. because you don't know nothing. and i mean nothing at all. , 5:33 AM
seventh!
"is it that you don't have the guts to face her in real life?" -fake name says- well i just wanna tell you, you don't dare to face me in real life either. put your real name damnit. or just keep that mouth of yours shut. Friday, January 15, 2010, 7:39 AM
sixth!
again and again. when i was certain i was good at something, it has to fail me. especially when there's nothing much i'm good at. what have i done wrongly. why have i lost control of everything. why have i found nothing but weaknesses. why haven't i found any strengths. what have i done wrongly. why am i seeing everyone excelling in one aspect or more. why am i seeing everyone smiles and cheers of joy. what have they done correctly. "i felt this way before, so insecure." -quote linkin park- somehow i can't find something i can hold on to. i can't find something that hasn't failed me for my past 14 years. my friends perhaps. or my family. but somehow, the line between friends and substitutes is getting rather blur right now. with all the philosophizing going on. idk what's going on in my friends' minds. idk what they think of me/other people. but nobody knows everything do they. but the very fact of not knowing things make me feel insecure, it's just me perhaps. during a talk they said everyone has gifts and the school'll convert it into a talent. but i'm sorry rgs, i've got neither. and i can't do anything about it. perhaps that's the real reason of my insecurity. i'll work on it. hopefully it'll turn out fine. ;"fear is how i fall, confusing what is real." Sunday, January 10, 2010, 12:51 AM
fifth!
but my faith's wearing thin. so help me heal these wounds, they've been open for way too long, help me fill this soul, even though this is not your fault. that i'm open, and i'm bleeding, all over your brand new rug, and i need someone to help me sew them up. i only wanted a magazine, i only wanted a movie screen, i only wanted the life i've read about and dreamed. and now my mind's an open book, and now my heart's an open wound, and now my life's an open soul for all to see." this song is repititive. D: but good charlotte, i'm sorry to say. but within 14[?] years of my life, i've realized that noone would help you. help me. whatever. help everyone or anyone. but this song's great. even when you won't have any help rendered. we can hope, can't we? ;ultimately, we're all alone, aren't we? , 12:31 AM
fourth!
i can't seem to find anything to blog about. D: ;help. Saturday, January 2, 2010, 5:05 AM
third!
what's my offense this time? you're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me, well sentence me to another life. ... i'm just a person but you can't take it. ... i don't wanna hear your sad songs, i don't wanna feel your pain. when you swear it's all my fault, 'cause you know we're not the same." this song rocks to the core. it got me thinking really. like how we (humans) judge other people unknowingly. how we hurt them with our judgements. how we compare themselves to ourselves. how we expect them of something we ourselves might not even be able to do. how we look at them as another. rather than a human like ourselves. but sometimes we say. i can do it so why can't you. i can do it so so should you. i can do it so so must you. yes we're all human. but we ain't the same. we don't have to do the things others do. we don't have to do the things we are expected to. damn it you hurt others when you're trying to protect another. don't you freaking know that. no you don't seem to realize. because you think you're right and i'm wrong. you can think of others more than i do. you can care for others more than i do. you're the perfect one. you're the saint. you're the saviour. i'm not. i'm just a human. don't expect something of me that i don't even expect of myself. (sorry i'm getting agitated.) |
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